First Thai massage–wowie

A long ago student of mine popped up recently wanting to know when and where I have my classes now.  I haven’t taught since I lost the place where I’d been teaching last spring and decided it was time for a break.  At the same time, I lost the bodywork trades I’d been doing in exchange for classes so aside from the splurge to have a couple of cranio-sacral appointments late last summer I’ve been without bodywork.

I offered to just give her some classes and she suggested that we trade private lessons for Thai massage.  I knew nothing about it but I love trying different sorts of bodywork so I said yes. Today I had the first appointment and I was just blown away.  The point is to open energy channels but it’s so much more.  A lot of it involves supported yoga poses while the practitioner also works on the stretched out muscles.  Some of the rest I don’t quite know how to describe.

Of course, after a long time away from getting worked on I realized there were a lot more sore places.  I was also impressed that the pattern of moving through the muscles included a lot of places where I’m very tight but don’t often feel that massage therapists address those particular muscles.

I came away feeling like some things had been blown open.  In a good way. The only time I can remember having quite the same sensation of huge energy from bodywork was when I received some lomi treatments during my Marin years from a woman who’d had the good fortune to study personally with the late, great Abraham Kawaii for a couple of years.  Both techniques are designed to open channels and let the energy flow freely though they accomplish it differently.

As I’ve been noting in recent posts, I’m aware I’ve been a little shut down and closed off recently but it was quite something to realize how my body had closed up a bit as well.  Not that I should have been surprised but I have still been practicing yoga and the Robert Masters-based work I developed–though not with my usual regularity–and I imagined that I’d been doing enough to keep my body aligned.  The good news is that even with a bit of lost ground I’m far ahead of where I once was.

I’m so grateful that the universe always seems to send the right practitioner my way at the right time.  I’m also having fun getting to teach my work again so a win-win!

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Ancestors, forgiveness and letting go

Part of my peaceful Sunday was watching two programs on Oprah.  On Super Soul Sunday she had Adyashanti and a little later there was an episode of her current series with Eckhart Tolle.  I haven’t been following the latter but when I saw this one was about dealing with emotional issues I recorded it.

In that way the Universe has of offering synchronicity, Adyashanti talked quite a bit about ancestral patterns and Eckhart Tolle brought up the relationship between emotional pain and family patterns/issues.  Those of you who’ve been reading this blog for a while know that I’ve been intensely interested for quite a while now in the role of ancestral patterns in defining our “now” so I was so grateful to get to see these.

Adyashanti particularly made the point that forgiveness is key to letting go.  It reminded me of the Fisher-Hoffman work, in which the finishing piece involves reaching out to the childhood selves of those you have been processing and finding peace and forgiveness by learning about their wounds and their perspective.  I have to admit that while I believe in the power and necessity of forgiveness, I often skirt that piece or do it cursorily.

Something about getting similar messages twice in the same afternoon brought home to me that some forgiveness work would be a good idea.  I’ve been a little angry with those ancestors whose legacies have been the source of deep issues for me.  Time for a little gratitude and forgiveness.

Sunday chanting for peace

It’s not just that the world needs you to hold a space of peace. Every time you stop and focus on peace you give your soul something it needs. Be selfish.  Be peace for yourself.

Collective Prayer Sundays:  In case you’re new, we’re finding 10 minutes at a minimum to pray or chant or meditate (or???) for peace every Sunday.  Details are on the CPS page.  For comments:  you can comment here or on that page or you can go to the Facebook page.

May you be filled with lovingkindness…

Yep.  I know.  Hard to believe it’s time again for peace.  Please chant or pray or meditate for peace.

Collective Prayer Sundays:  In case you’re new, we’re finding 10 minutes at a minimum to pray or chant or meditate (or???) for peace every Sunday.  Details are on the CPS page.  For comments:  you can comment here or on that page or you can go to the Facebook page.

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Peaceful in Florida

I headed off to Florida on Saturday on a long-overdue visit to my father, who turns 89 next month.  Didn’t manage to get wi-fi until too late for my usual peaceful Sunday reminder.  Hope you had a lovely time with the chanting for peace.  I must admit that peace for me was just having a quiet day with my dad.  Trying to get settled in and help him with some things, I never “sat” or chanted.  A good day though, with a peaceful heart.

Shifting… spring, limbo???

Crocus

Crocus (Photo credit: tejvanphotos)

We’ve finally had some warmer weather.  Hyacinths and crocuses are blooming and the magnolia in the backyard is full of buds.  As my spirits improve with nicer days I’m realizing that my doldrums haven’t only been about winter.  Somewhere last fall I felt like this whole unwinding head thing went past an edge for me.  I just don’t have the energy to keep figuring out how to get it to the finish line and I’m so tired of the yanking and jerking and not sleeping and headaches…

Anyway, since the process keeps on keeping on whether or not I have any patience left, I’ve been in a kind of limbo.  Putting up because I have no choice but kind of withdrawn?  beyond the end of my rope?  In a way the long cold winter and the hibernation it induced gave me a good excuse to stay holed up.  With longer days and a somewhat sunnier attitude, I’m realizing that a bit of that sense of limbo continues.

Having been told several times that if the muscles around my eyes jerked open too fast I could be blinded or if other muscles released too suddenly it could cause a stroke, I try to be grateful that the slow progress of this journey has kept me safe from those dire possibilities.  But some days the only gratitude list I can come up with is “thanks for not making me blind or giving me a stroke,” and that list doesn’t really leave me feeling uplifted.

The good news is that the recent yanks and twists have been opening much more at a time and I have moments here and there when I can just about feel what it might be like to have a head that isn’t scrunched in a vise.  Very nice!  My vision is noticeably improving and I actually feel some space around my eyes.  When I feel one of those big openings I get that this is a pretty miraculous process.

Sometimes the healing journey is so slow and circuitous it’s hard to hold on to faith that the Universe is always working for our best interests.  As the days warm up and the flowers start blooming I’m sensing that movement is afoot and limbo is on the way out.  If any others out there have been on a journey so slow that you wonder sometimes if there’s a point or whether your faith is unfounded, I know how tough that is!  But I do have faith that all our journeys are led by a higher consciousness that knows how to take us where we need to go.

 

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Chant or Pray for Peace Day!

See if you can find 10 minutes for peace– chant, pray, meditate, celebrate PEACE for at least 10 minutes today.

Don’t forget there’s a challenge for Collective Prayer Sundays and you still have time to do it.

Collective Prayer Sundays:  In case you’re new, we’re finding 10 minutes at a minimum to pray or chant or meditate (or???) for peace every Sunday.  Details are on the CPS page.  For comments:  you can comment here or on that page or you can go to the Facebook page.

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