In yesterday’s post I invited participation in making posts about forgiveness, but at the end of the post. Thought I’d reiterate with the invitation as the only piece. I’m going to do a bunch of forgiveness work Aug. 1-14. I’d love to have you write a post on one of those days about your experience of forgiveness. Whether you want to participate in forgiveness practices with me for those two weeks and write about it or tell a past story about forgiveness or lack of it is up to you.
- sign up for one of the dates Aug. 1-14 — Aug. 5 is taken and I will do Aug. 14
- write the post and put it up on YOUR blog
- link to this post: http://bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com/2014/07/21/a-round-of-forgiveness/
Each day I’ll put up a link here to that day’s post.
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A few weeks ago Julianne from Through a Peacock’s Eyes got in touch to tell me she’d “gotten” some info about me while reading a post and that she felt I need healing regarding an ancestor or past life. That launched an exchange about the ceremony I put together and performed last year.
I’d realized that an ancestor I’d uncovered some years ago had much to do with the tightness in my head and that she was still holding tight (see this post). Julianne felt that I needed to do a ceremony of forgiveness — that the ancestor needs to be forgiven before she can completely let go.
I’ve been thinking about it since then and realizing that I tend to be cursory about the forgiveness piece. Not that I don’t work on it or that I haven’t done many ceremonies, practices, and prayers of forgiveness but I don’t always think to do it. And even when I do, it often doesn’t seem to stick. I liked the idea of forgiveness for that ancestor but I felt that I wanted to do more.
To be honest, I’ve been a little ticked off at all my ancestors since I figured out how many negative patterns I carry that were passed down by them. When a friend forwarded me a piece that urged us to be thankful to our ancestors I felt myself tense up and think, “What for?” Followed by some unrepeatable grumbling. And there are a few members of my family for whom I’ve performed a variety of forgiveness exercises, only to realize later that I’m still angry.
So I’ve decided that I want to do a more comprehensive forgiveness practice. I’m working on creating another ceremony. Fortunately I really like the opening, space-setting, etc. pieces of the ceremony I already created so I don’t have to do it all again. Just working on the prayer or spell of forgiveness to put in.
I’ve decided that I want to devote two weeks to forgiveness (keep reading for an invitation below). My plan is to focus on a particular person or group every few days. For those days I’ll say the lovingkindness chant and Mornah’s Prayer every day for that person and do the ceremony on that person’s last day. I’ll post from time to time throughout.
My invitation to you: I plan to do this forgiveness work starting Aug. 1 for two weeks. During that time I’d like to invite you to sign up for one of the days from Aug. 1-14 to write a post about forgiveness. You can participate along with me in working on forgiveness and write a post about your experience. You can write a post about a past experience of forgiveness. You can write a post about something you can’t forgive. As long as it’s a personal account having to do with forgiveness, it works. I’ll post a list of all those who are signed up to post and every day I’ll put a link to your post here. Please link to this post in your post so I get the pingback to tell me your post is there. Use the comments below to sign up for the date you want.
It all started when my cousin’s twins got me to sign up for Disney’s Pixie Hollow. I really enjoyed it. The twins grew out of it while their mom and I kept playing… Late last summer Disney shut it down. I missed it. Kept running searches to find similar sites and finding disappointment instead. I looked at Wizard 101 a few times before I tried it. Once I tried I became intrigued.
I’d never played a complex computer game like that before and much of it seemed mysterious. I was especially surprised at how much the game’s help files didn’t tell me. I did lots of research and found posts on the site’s wiki and various blogs that helped but it seemed odd to have to gather information from all over the place.
One of the things I’m good at is putting together complex information and finding a way to explain the basics. I felt like there was a need for a guide to the game and that I should write it. I also noticed that a LOT of the advice came from very high level players who’d obviously forgotten the parameters of the game at the lower levels. My guide is specifically for players level 40 and below.
Yes, I’ve been missing in action a lot because of lack of sleep and headaches, but I’ve also been missing in action because I’ve been figuring out this game and playing it and researching and writing about it. Started a blog about it too — Wizard101 Basics for Non-Gamers. And I’ve actually had a lot of fun.
It’s finally finished and just uploaded to Kindle. It’s available here. So there it is, my secret life. Now I’m gonna get back to writing the rest of Relating Heart to Heart – and I’ll still be playing the game…
Don’t forget it’s time to chant or pray for peace! See the Collective Prayer Sunday page for more info.
Wikipedia Facial Muscles
As I struggle with the unwinding muscles I keep being struck by the vast amounts of my energy that have obviously been bound up in holding all of this tightness. It isn’t a new thought; as the process of restoring my muscles from all of them being steely, twisted, and glued-together has moved along I’ve been aware that my energy increases as my body opens. But there’s something about the slow journey from cement-like to healthy in my head and face that has really brought it home.
Most of this year I’ve felt like I’m barely hanging on in one sense. The constant unwinding of the muscles in my face, while miraculous, is also painful and wearing. It interferes so much with sleep that I’m often just catching naps whenever I can. Keeping to any kind of schedule is nearly impossible. Exercise, meditation, cooking, cleaning — all these things have become hit or miss. It’s hard not to feel like a failure when I so rarely do what I meant to do.
The shining light that keeps me taking one more step each day is the amazing feeling as life is restored to one tiny place at a time. Every increment of blood and prana flow restored show me how much energy did NOT flow. Every piece that opens reveals how very much energy has been devoted to holding all this steely tightness from head to toe for most of my life.
You can see in the picture above that there are many layers of muscles in your face. Every single one of those was twisted like steely pipe and every single one that you can see connected to others was intertwined with and glued together in groups with every connected piece. I can now feel parts of my face that I have no memory of feeling. The body is like that — lots of layers, lots of interconnections. Once one part goes off they all start twisting to fit the pattern.
I’ve said it many times — I know that most people don’t have a situation with their muscles as bad as mine. But I also know that TMJ, tight necks and shoulders, near-sightedness and back pain–to name a few–are rampant. And I’m not sure that everybody realizes how much of their energy is lost to those holding patterns. Various sorts of body work help with these things but at some point I think it takes personal work. If you don’t practice yoga or some sort of pattern-ending movement (see here for the work I developed) in between, body work will rarely take you the whole way. Emotions are also in there. These holding patterns contain parts of your story. Parts of your ancestors’ stories. You don’t have to dredge up every detail but I do think you have to be willing to look inward and see what you’re holding in there.
It takes time. This isn’t stuff you can plan on fixing with a few body work sessions or one “release the past” exercise. Most people don’t have to go through the excruciatingly slow process that I’ve had to go through but these patterns take time. I think I’ve been led through this long slow process so that I could feel every stage of opening and be aware of it all. And to spread the word — do the work. It’s worth it.
DON’T FORGET TO CHANT FOR PEACE! See Collective Prayer Sundays for info.
Can’t remember the last time I had a whole night’s sleep. The good news is that the unwinding muscles are making great progress. If my brain is functioning it’s doing it on some alternate plane. I used to say this felt like someone stuck a pin in me and let my air out. Now it’s something worse. Like gutted. But I don’t like that one. Is there a really juicy word or phrase for something worse than having your air let out? See? Alternate plane…
I can pull it together, though, to remind you: IT’S TIME TO CHANT FOR PEACE! Check out the details on Collective Prayer Sundays here.