The main reason I’ve been absent so much from blogging has been the unwinding face muscles. Not just the unwinding itself, but the huge transition it’s creating have been diverting me from the keyboard.
So many people have been puzzled about what I mean by unwinding, I decided one day while it was in full yanking and tugging mode to grab my phone and record. What you can see on the surface is really just the tip of the iceberg and I wish I could figure out how to describe the multitudes of things going on in the muscles underneath.
All the contortions are driven by what’s going on in the muscles and for the most part out of my control (I can clench down hard and force it to stop but that’s not something I can or want to do routinely, especially since it re-creates some of the knots and tension already released). When this decides to start happening it just takes over.
The good news is my face, head and neck are becoming slowly but surely free of tension, clenching, pressure, etc. Periodically significant pieces open and I feel a new level of “wow, my face can feel like this?” Those moments are the blessing in all this that keeps me able to tolerate it. Not to mention my eternal optimism 🙂
Nonetheless I thought it might help make the process clearer if I showed you. Imagine this going on for hours a day — sometimes as much as 18 or all 24 — and perhaps you can see why I say it stops so much of my life. Why I can’t sleep. Why I’m so tired. Why I often can’t concentrate to write or meditate… I’m not anxious for this to wind up all over the place so in about a week I plan to take down the video and probably this post.
In this time of transition both for earth and in my life, I’ve been pretty silent on this blog. Kind of hard to describe the fogginess that overtakes me every time I try to write up some thoughts… A lot has been going on so I thought I’d do one of my catch-up pieces about this and that.
I’m still pondering the “what am I here for?”, “what’s next?” questions that have been looming for quite some time. I’ve been seeing how lots of seemingly unconnected steps along my journey are adding up to a greater whole for some time. But lately I’m realizing it probably stretches on back to my politico college days and the studies I did on government and power (I’ll catch you up on that in a future post). I still keep seeing a guide book on peaceful activism but I keep feeling there are more pieces to put together first and I’m prepared for change to march me in a different direction…
The last few months have seen some significant, if slow, progress on the unwinding front. The deep, deep places in my face that are opening now are connected to patterns throughout my body and the opening is leading to huge energy flows. The huge runs of energy have a lot to do with my inability to pull together coherent thoughts and also interfere with sleeping.
I’m hearing that big energy shifts and downloads and weird physical things are happening for lots of folks as this is a big time of transition so I’m guessing it’s pushing my healing process along as well as impacting other levels of transformation.
This last weekend seemed to mark a moment of big shift. On Friday I whacked my left elbow into the edge of a towel bar which has had it black and blue and, initially, swollen. The next day, some spilled suntan oil in a store left me splatted on the ground, smashing my left knee and wrist as well as banging my left hip. By Saturday night I had puffy, black and blue elbow, wrist and knee.
Having learned that it really helps to do the triggers of release work after an accident, I did a number of those exercises Saturday night. I started experiencing pops and opening at way deeper levels than the accident could possibly have reached that quickly. It reminded me of another fall, after which Body Patterning practitioner Hanna commented on picking up the feeling that I needed the fall to crack some things open. That’s exactly how this has felt.
Not only did things begin to open more deeply that night, but it has activated a lot of opening in those last, intertwined pieces in my face — the root stuff that has been slow and resistant to opening. Now, I could do a lot of exploring about some message from particular places I injured (or look it up in Louise Hay 🙂 ) and I do find it interesting all the injuries were on the left (feminine) side, but I’m satisfied that cracking open was the point.
How long? how long?
Over the years I’ve often circled back to wondering why this healing process is taking SO long. I first realized there were massive problems with my muscles and my health over 30 years ago. I’ve practiced yoga, spent tens of thousands of dollars on body work, created a new exercise series for it and done countless of hours of energy practices not to mention the affirmations, prayers and visions…
While I’m aware there have been many lessons and I’ve learned a lot about my body I’d never have known without this long slow process, I’m again at a point of saying to the Universe, “Enough. I’ve had enough.” Way past the point of getting what benefit there could possibly be to 30+ total years and something like 12 years of just getting the muscles in my face and head sorted out. Enough. Not that saying “enough” seems to affect the Universe… 🙂
Love and Compassion
Meanwhile, still working at love and compassion and ever more convinced the answer for these times is to be love, be peace, be compassion. I posted a Patricia Cota-Robles video a while back in which she leads a meditation basically for healing all humanity and bringing love to the world. I’m posting it again below, just to make it easy if you’re interested. I play it on my tablet as I go to sleep most every night and I love it.
Got to see Patricia in person at one of her free events last Sunday, which was SO lovely! And I’ve been making my way slowly through a Ram Dass on line retreat involving videos from a real world workshop on transforming negative emotions. Good stuff.
Still chanting as well as seeking out videos and workshops focused on the issues so dear to my heart.
I realized today I completely spaced out yesterday about posting for We are the World Blogfest, but I still wanted to add a piece. Since I’m all about peaceful activism and finding new ways to accomplish change with love and compassion, I was pleased to read this piece in Positive News about a movement for Gentle Protest: https://www.positive.news/2017/society/26751/the-art-of-gentle-protest/
If you’d like to join in with your own post about something positive, add your link here
Someone posted a clip of Mo Gawdat on Facebook (I have a habit of opening stuff like that in another tab and not viewing until later; then I don’t remember who pointed me there 🙂 ) and his message about happiness turned out to be so in line with things I’ve been thinking.
I particularly love the distinction he makes between fun and happiness — much like my thoughts about over-stimulation often being mistaken for joy. Though there are longer videos in which he discusses this in greater depth, I purposely chose to use this short clip to make it easier for you to get the gist:
A new meditation series from Deepak Chopra and Oprah Winfrey begins April 10. This time the topic is Hope in Uncertain Times. Certainly seems a good exploration at the moment.
I’ve enjoyed many of these series. The meditations are short, so not necessarily the deepest experience, but I’ve found the issues raised about each topic have led me to explore deeper places on my own and the chanting always feels good.
You can register here.
I’ve been a little silent lately. Partly because the unwinding is back with the usual discombobulation accompanying and also because I’ve been ruminating on current events and what I want to say…
It’s been an amazing time for me in general. As I mentioned recently, my daily chanting into heart-fullness has brought me face to face with some remaining issues about worthiness, self-love and my ongoing journey to transform my ancestral negative thinking habit into positive thinking; it’s been a far tougher transition over the years than I’d have imagined when I started out and blithely assumed a few months of affirmations would fix everything.
Since my last post, I’ve been guided to “The Cure Is…“, which I LOVED. I was given a link to see it free on Vimeo but I’ve found the DVD at Amazon and am thinking I want to buy it and add it to my growing collection of positive thought movies.
And then a friend sent me a link to this lovely — and fairly short — video of Martha Beck on YouTube, which I found to be the PERFECT message for these times and reflects how I see it working:
The piece that’s been bugging me lately has been the handful of friends on Facebook who can’t seem to stop fear-mongering even though they have spiritual knowledge and practices that should help them step out of that space. I’ll be posting more about those issues — theirs with the fear and mine with being bugged by it 🙂 later.
But this little film from Ms. Beck helped me to see the message I most want to spread, the one I most want to be my message: Be the Peace. Hold the space of lovingkindness. Let your heart be filled with love and compassion.
Being in fear only helps them. What we need right now is for as many people as possible to be clearing anything within them that stands in the way of peace and compassion and also meditating, chanting, praying their way into higher consciousness. The higher we take the consciousness, the more that pyramid she’s depicting melts into the sea of love.
BE THE LOVE!
P.S. A little extra. I have also found great comfort in this YouTube video from Patricia Cota Robles. I’ve been listening to it every night as I go to sleep. Some of it’s pretty woo woo if you’re not into some of the I AM stuff but the basic message about transforming the world into eternal peace is spot on: