Energetically speaking, for me there’s so much going on these days I have trouble deciding: which kind of energy, what started it, whether it’s me or some cosmic shift… The unwinding is opening nadis and letting prana flow and grow. Kundalini seems to be back (or maybe never went away…). Supposedly cosmic forces are moving us along and flooding us with energy big time.
Besides being “buzzy” with gigantic amounts of energy running through me, lately I’ve been noticing a certain cranky factor. It shows up just in certain situations and the rest of the time isn’t apparent. It particularly shows up when I’m watching TV and some type of character I don’t like is a major part of the story. Types whom I’ve always found mildly irritating are suddenly launching me into fury.
For instance, on NCIS LA, one of the two new characters this season I just never much liked (the other I adored though according to the cliffhanger she may not be back next season). Most of the season I just kind of ignored her. But in the finale she played a big part and every officious, obnoxious character trait (not to mention her whistling S’s) seemed exaggerated and especially annoying.
I spent the whole episode waving my fists and shouting, “would somebody just please shoot her (the character, not the actress) and put us all out of our misery???!!!” “Or at least put tape over her mouth so we don’t have to listen to her?” Now, it wouldn’t have been all that unusual for me to roll my eyes, grunt, and fast forward every time she showed up. But shouting and shaking fists, that’s a bit unusual. And as a basic pacifist, pretty odd for me to want somebody shot…
This total impatience for characters who offend me — and officiousness, which has been a very popular character trait the last couple of years, is something that really bugs me — accompanied by a sense of fury, is kind of new. I’m aware of the spike in emotion every time it happens.
And then there’s #45. I didn’t like him long before he ran for President and I’ve certainly been annoyed by plenty since his election. But now when he shows up on my TV screen, I start gagging and crossing my fingers in the sign to ward off evil. Again, some unpleasant muttering and eye rolling wouldn’t have been unusual in the past. On my good days followed by saying the lovingkindness chant. But now I feel like I’m erupting.
I’m trying to decide whether these sudden flares of temper are reflecting something in me that’s clearing. Or, since I’m inclined to pick up on others’ energy, am I picking up on the general atmosphere of discord and working it out through my reactions to what I see on screen? Or are some of these cosmic energies that are supposedly flooding us these days creating bigger emotional reactions than usual? Is the constant big flow of energy creating irritation? All of the above?
It’s been going on at least a couple of months so I know most things about alignments of stars, etc. have shifted more than once while this has been going on which has me I’m assuming it’s not about the movement of planets and such.
Since lots of you in this community are following all this stuff about this time of transition and are sensitive to energy, I’m curious whether anyone else is experiencing weird stuff like this? Or are aware of info about the transition that would explain any of this. Or just, you know, have any thoughts?