The more my eyes loosen up and my jaw opens, the more I feel a breeze quietly moving through my being. Although my eye is still mainly on the prize — finishing the unwinding head saga–I can feel that the shifting in my head is creating shifts in me.
Lately I’ve been feeling poked as tales of similar workshops and theories have been coming at me from many directions. Within a couple of days of one another there were posts on Alohaleya and Aligning with Truth mentioned Landmark Forum, which led me to examine that course. Louise at Dare Boldly has written about Choices Seminars many times and I’ve examined their site. I noticed that both of them emphasize “story” — an examination of the stories you’ve created about life and who you are and that you adhere to regardless of their truth or efficacy.
Then I had lunch with a friend who told me about a webinar she’s been taking that’s about discovering/examining your stories and letting them go. Okay, Universe, you don’t have to hit me over the head with a book about it, I get that this is something I need to explore.
Tonight I made my first visit to the monthly Spiritual Cinema group that meets at a Science of Mind-based center called Ahava. The film was The Shift. When Wayne Dyer talked about the morning of life and getting caught in the beliefs and decisions we made long ago it struck me that he was also talking about the stories we’ve created. Apparently my higher self has decided that I need to hear about this daily…
So I’ve been starting to ask myself about what my stories are. I’ve let go of so much, I know that lots of old stories don’t still function. But I know there are core issues still hanging around and that those are the ones that are hardest to see; I’m intrigued whether some of these workshops/techniques would help me uncover more.
It also reminded me of the long ago transpersonal psychologist who started me down this path. She worked from a base theory about creating your own reality. One of the exercises we worked with a lot was to go into meditation asking, “What do I believe that created this reality?” and then ask to be taken back to when and where that belief started.
At some point I’d like to attend either Choices or Landmark Forum or both, but in the meantime, I’m planning to work a little bit with what I already know and see what shows up.
I’ve also been encountering lots of messages–including a great post on Brenda’s Blog— about following the things you love and getting that those are the things you’re “meant” to do. And realizing that I’ve been tending to dismiss the dreams I love the most — the ones that feel the most like me but also feel selfish or not spiritual enough, etc. Which I get is a story I’ve created…. So I’m also looking at changing goals and aspirations.
Next couple of posts will be more on these winds of change..