Last time I talked about a recent phone conversation that has been a big spark for thinking about this transition time I’ve been in. The same discussion ignited a lengthy examination of my role in being one of the spiritual trailblazers who’ve been moving ahead of the curve.
It’s not how I would usually think of myself. And even writing about this makes me realize there’s still a big issue to explore about wanting to always be humble and not take credit for anything “big”. But I started seeing at least 10 or 12 years ago that some of my thinking about a lot of spiritual things and especially the application of spiritual principles in the world, was not in the same place as other people I knew or other people in general on a similar path.
At first, since I tend to be an outsider, I assumed I was just out of step — as usual. But then one of the many quite psychic body-workers/healers with whom I’ve worked, commented on me being ahead of the curve on this. Then, a little over two years ago I wrote about an amazing healing experience with Oshunnike, who made an even more pointed observation while she worked (and I was completely out of it and hadn’t said anything) that I am way out there ahead of where most people are in what I understand and the work I’ve been trying to do and it’s going to be hard for me for a while — and lonely. She literally pulled this observation out of the air — 🙂 seemingly — as I’d not mentioned anything about this. Two years ago and it’s still hard…
On the one hand it felt SO good to have this confirmation of feelings I’d barely acknowledged or allowed myself to note and on the other it was hard to accept the idea of me as a trailblazer. But her words and that thought stayed with me and I’ve realized the truth of it more and more. My reaction to the U.S. election last year and the aftermath have been bringing increasing clarity to how radically different my understanding is from the way most people see it or react to it.
I’m so grateful that I have friends who “get it” and I’ve been hoping to reach out more toward those who do. Thus my gratitude is so enormous for having this great conversation show up — with a friend I rarely get to talk with at length — and for the wave of realizations it has brought. Just having someone talking to me about it made me feel weepy.
Again, one of the things it has me contemplating is how I seem to have gathered a community here in the blogging world of people who get it — and I’m coming to understand it’s possibly the main reason I was drawn to do this. So again, I’m interested to hear from you all about this trailblazer thing — your experience of being ahead of the curve on understanding how the world works and how far outside the mainstream understanding it is.
I’m wondering if there is some way we can support one another more than by just reading and commenting? I’m sensing those of us in the advance troops could use some assistance in holding an energy space together, to join our energies in the forward movement to a new age.
What do you all think?