The main reason I’ve been absent so much from blogging has been the unwinding face muscles. Not just the unwinding itself, but the huge transition it’s creating have been diverting me from the keyboard.
So many people have been puzzled about what I mean by unwinding, I decided one day while it was in full yanking and tugging mode to grab my phone and record. What you can see on the surface is really just the tip of the iceberg and I wish I could figure out how to describe the multitudes of things going on in the muscles underneath.
All the contortions are driven by what’s going on in the muscles and for the most part out of my control (I can clench down hard and force it to stop but that’s not something I can or want to do routinely, especially since it re-creates some of the knots and tension already released). When this decides to start happening it just takes over.
The good news is my face, head and neck are becoming slowly but surely free of tension, clenching, pressure, etc. Periodically significant pieces open and I feel a new level of “wow, my face can feel like this?” Those moments are the blessing in all this that keeps me able to tolerate it. Not to mention my eternal optimism 🙂
Nonetheless I thought it might help make the process clearer if I showed you. Imagine this going on for hours a day — sometimes as much as 18 or all 24 — and perhaps you can see why I say it stops so much of my life. Why I can’t sleep. Why I’m so tired. Why I often can’t concentrate to write or meditate… I’m not anxious for this to wind up all over the place so in about a week I plan to take down the video and probably this post.