The last couple of weeks have involved a lot of unwinding, not sleeping and headaches… and a lot of reflection about this long long process. [Pretty much every muscle you see up there has been wound up in knots and intertwined and/or glued to just about every other muscle in my face they could possibly touch]
Both body work practitioners and meditation “guides” have told me there were dangers (blindness or stroke) in opening the muscles too fast so I’ve tried to be grateful but really by and large I’ve been frustrated and impatient. I’ve repeatedly asked the Universe and Ku to just finish the healing and let me be free. I’ve said affirmations and done visualizations (and no, I’m not looking for suggestions for some other technique to try). I’ve done practices and spent fortunes on body work and healers. It all helps but the process is still maddeningly slow.
When I feel the degree of tugging on the left optic nerve and realize the depth to which it has been entwined in other muscles it IS nerve wracking and I can sense the danger if something pulled too hard or too suddenly. It helps me understand the need for a slow unfolding but doesn’t stop me wishing it would hurry up.
I also keep feeling different stages of energy returning, with growing comprehension of how much energy tight muscles commandeer. Long ago, when I finished the Fisher Hoffman process, most of the major muscles in my body (not head) finally started letting go. The next year or two brought great progress in body work and I experienced a great boost of energy first from releasing the emotional material and then from opening muscles so energy could flow more freely. It turned out the chronic fatigue arose from the muscle issues.
Now I’m experiencing an amazing process wherein the unfolding around my eyes is opening up energy pathways through my whole body. It’s amazing to realize how much of my prana has been sidetracked into holding all these tight muscles in my face and how much tight muscles interfere with the flow of energy.
And the more I feel it the more I want to shout out to the many folks I see everywhere I go whose muscles are visibly tight: heal your muscles and get your energy back! Haven’t decided how to present this mission of healing but I can see it’s part of the reason for this long drawn-out process.
My impression, based both on my own experience and what I’ve observed, is that most people don’t realize how fatiguing it is to have tight muscles. How detrimental to your health. Until I finally got the right diagnosis, I had no idea tight muscles could squeeze organs and glands. For me, it was every organ and every gland being squeezed until they could barely function.
For now all I can think of is to tell you to take care of your muscles. If you have knots and painful places, do what you have to to heal them. Your health and vitality depend on it.