My break didn’t go quite as planned. The first day or two I did relax, exercise, meditate, reflect on the future… Then the unwinding started again. Big time. Somehow when I can’t sleep and my face is yanking around for hours at a time I find it pretty much impossible to meditate and any sort of schedule goes out the window.
At one point I described the muscles behind my eyes as feeling as if they were rooted through the earth and wrapped around a mountain in China and it was a toss up whether the roots would release and let my eyes go or the muscles were going to pull a mountain on to my head…. OK, yes, it’s a little dramatic 🙂 but it was the best I could do to try to describe how it felt.
As of last night the muscles that would not budge finally started unwinding — yea, apparently no mountain-on-head scenario to ensue… They’re so tight I don’t have a clue how much longer but I’m ecstatic to feel them opening at last.
I did manage, in my one good meditation, to have a good session with my council of guides who assured me the visions and ideas I’ve been putting together about the future are where I’m going but now is not the time to worry about how to get there. This process has to be completed first. The lesson in patience goes on … at the moment I’m not learning it very well…
Even though I didn’t get to spend the week quite as planned, I did keep up with my blogging break. Not only did I not write posts, but I cut way back on how much time I spent on reading blogs. And I really enjoyed it.
I realized I have some decisions to make about how much time I want to be putting into this. The easiest decision is to cut back on reading blogs. I’ve politely followed far too many. I never do read everything, but generally I really try to get around to most of them.
This last week I only read my favorites, generally also the ones written by people with whom I interact quite often. The people I love and would miss. I realized, though, that my reader is filled with blogs I don’t have a big interest in, written by people who never interact with me.
I loved not only spending much less time by reading only my favorites but also that those deep, thoughtful posts I love had more impact when not surrounded by reading tons of other stuff. So I’m going to be paring down my subscriptions and becoming choosier about what I read on a daily basis.
I also realized I tend to go in cycles of having lots of ideas and having posts writing themselves in my head and spells when I don’t. So in the fertile moments I also plan to work on drafting but not necessarily publishing right away and maybe scheduling posts just for certain days. I know a few of my blogging buddies post only Monday-Friday so I’m also considering choosing a couple of specific days to take off.
In other words, during the next few weeks I’m going to be experimenting.
And when my eyes quit yanking and I get some sleep I may go back to the plan of less blogging, more meditating and exercise for a spell…