Yesterday I had a cranio-sacral appointment with Robyn. Five days after the healing session with Osunnike, her description of what it was like to work on me this time–compared to previously–sounded like a different body.
Words like fluidity and flow — wow. I don’t think anyone has ever worked on my body before and used such terms in reference to it. There are still a few spots, mostly in my head, that aren’t completely open, but the change is so huge, I can’t complain.
One piece of the healing with Osunnike that I’m still processing involved her seeing my karma as clean but with a bunch of stuff attached as with velcro. Her sense was that it was all ancestral stuff and none of it was mine. She was able to clear it all and it’s hard to describe the sense of change.
I’ve been saying for a long time that I felt as if something “not me” has been influencing my life, especially as to success, abundance and spiritual development. I’d done enough genealogy research to realize that these influences followed familial patterns and I guessed that cellular memory might play a part. I began doing ceremonies and practices to release and/or cut cords with my ancestors but continued to feel that sense of being controlled by something outside me. I didn’t say a word to her about any of that, so it came as a great affirmation to have her “see” this.
Ever since the healing, I’ve been noting a big shift in my perceptions and thinking. It used to be that I’d say affirmations or think positive thoughts and feel like some other voice was pooh-poohing everything, dragging me back toward negativity.* I’ve also felt as if something literally blocked my path every time I tried to create a new career path/business venture.
Now I say affirmations or think positive thoughts and no little voice starts spouting the “why-nots” and the “can’t-dos”. As Robyn worked, I kept feeling happy and freed and thinking positive thoughts about release and I had such a consciousness of what a sea change that represented. I don’t think I’ve ever felt like all levels of me were pulling in line with healing as someone worked on me before.
So much is shifting these days, I’ve been sleeping a lot and another consultation with the Akashic records has advised me to take it easy and let all this process for a while. Osunnike also mentioned it would be important for 30 days to be sure I keep doing practices that keep my energy clear and balanced so I’m moving back into key breaths, yoga nidra, etc. more often.
I particularly felt drawn to share this story because I keep running into people who feel stuck in their journey or blocked somehow. It’s possible to be influenced by past lives and/or ancestral issues. As I’ve mentioned before, my research pointed to patterns of poverty consciousness, negativity and stress. It’s amazing how much you can pick up as you research your family, just from seeing census info.
I used a number of modalities to work on ancestral issues, which I discussed here. While none of it eliminated all issues, I’m quite sure that the seeming ease with which the current healing process took place came about because of all the preparation, body work, practices, etc. that came before.
I’ll let you know about progress as it occurs…
* For a long time there was definitely a lot of me in that but somewhere in the last few years I started feeling like I’d cleaned up my part of it and something else was in play.