Recently my mother looked over at me, watching my face contort as unwinding muscles yanked my jaw around and dragged at my eyes, and said, “I don’t know how you’ve stood that for so long. I think a couple of weeks of that and I’d shoot myself.” I didn’t know how much I’d needed someone to say that until she did. This has been quite a ride. If you’ve followed me a long time you know I’ve posted about this unwinding head off and on, sometimes providing info and sometimes whining…
The unwinding has become a touchstone for me. When I do a practice that builds energy I can feel the energy press through the nadis and assist a little more unwinding. When I do something like the ceremonies I’ve done to break the ancestor’s spell I pay a lot of attention to what happens in those muscles. Both times I’ve done the ceremony the unwinding has been wild — and has gone to a deeper level in the muscles. Still not done but I’m certain that the ancestor’s spell and the unyielding muscles in my face and head are related and that I’ve either ended the spell or seriously loosened its grip.
When I started the muscles were wound up so tightly, so tangled with each other, so glued together that as this has gone along I’ve periodically stared at various photos of the muscles of the face, trying to relate what I can feel to a sense of the muscles and until recently I couldn’t sort out one from another because they were too entangled. I’d already spent many years of bodywork and yoga getting the muscles from the neck down sorted out from the same state: every muscle wound up like steel, all muscles groups entangled and glued together and glued to bones. My first main massage therapist took over a year to get the muscles in my back unglued from my ribs.
I know it’s not always interesting to read somebody’s health issues but somehow this ordeal has felt like something I need to keep sharing. Though most people don’t have issues as severe as this, I’ve taught yoga and movement and watched people’s bodies for long enough that I know the majority of people have issues with tight muscles. I also know that nearsightedness, TMJ, and under-developed jaws are rampant (and many have more than one of those), doctors do little with muscles, and most body workers work from the neck down. Only a few modalities address the head; the two I use are cranio-sacral and bodypatterning.
All those tight muscles sap energy and block the flow of prana. Don’t let it go until it’s so bad it takes 20+ years to get it all sorted out as it has for me.