Many of you know that I created a ceremony in September to break the spell of an ancestor. I felt it was powerful and definitely moved a lot of energy–I could especially tell because the bound up muscles in my head that were held by her spell began unwinding at quite a pace. The unwinding kept going for quite a while but recently slowed down.
I can’t always get an absolute sense of whether something like that has “worked” or not — maybe in part because of the block to my “seeing” that the ancestor created…. I felt guided shortly after the ceremony to info about the “ego eradicator” and took on the challenge to practice it for 40 days. Again I’ve felt powerful energy and my energy has been stronger than in a long time. I’ve also shaken off some cobwebs and started moving forward with various projects that have been in limbo in recent months.
But as I’ve approached the last day of ego busting tomorrow, I’ve noted that the unwinding in my head has stalled somewhere short of finished. The blocks in first and third chakras seem to have opened quite nicely but my head — and sixth — seem to be partially stuck. I know sometimes you can release an issue and it takes a while for muscles to catch up but somehow I felt that the ancestor’s grip, while loosened incredibly, still held to some degree in my head.
So tonight I did the ceremony again. I started out just wanting to do ceremony and thinking I’d do all the parts except the little bit that relates specifically to the ancestor. Last minute I decided that it wouldn’t hurt to do it all since I’ve been hazy as to whether the first one completely took care of it. Like I said my ability to sense this kind of thing is sketchy… The progress of the unwinding muscles has been my touchstone.
Since my ceremony starts with the lovingkindness chant and since all of this is, I feel, key to removing blocks to being peace, I chose tonight to do it as my offering to Collective Prayer Sundays. Again no magic moment in which I felt certain that she’s gone and my world is now transformed. But wow the energy was powerful. And the few muscles that are still twisted are seriously in unwinding mode. Plus I love a powerful ceremony! How was your time of chanting or praying for peace?
- Tonight’s Chanting and the Final Ceremony Breakdown (bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com)
- Seven days of eradicating ego (bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com)
- Ceremony Breakdown: Protection (bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com)
- Ego Eradicator – Halfway Through (bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com)
- Ceremony Breakdown: My Chants plus Gayatri event and CPS open (bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com)