I reblogged a post on Tuesday that contained a very insightful discussion of the role of the psoas in physical health and its link to the soul. I’ve known for a very long time that my psoas was tight but never read anything that connected it so thoroughly into many of my issues. While I know that other muscles have been squeezing my organs and glands and creating a lot of the fatigue with which I’ve struggled, I didn’t realize that the psoas alone could cause the problem so the combo must have been huge for my body to deal with.
The info arrived at a moment when I’ve been reflecting on this journey and realize that something in me seems to be resistant to moving on. I’ve had the impression for a while that if the muscles in my head would let me sleep the chronic fatigue would not be a problem. Since my cranio sacral appointment last week the muscles have been fairly quiet but now something has been going on with my energy — it’s a bit like (but not quite the same as ) kundalini but I sense it more like a bunch of energy is being downloaded into me. I’ve been hearing that that’s happening a lot for people so I’m not alarmed. But it’s interfering with sleep.
It occurred to me that whatever part of my unconscious developed chronic fatigue in response to life and in order to keep me small and hidden is pretty determined to keep me from stepping out into the world. Every time I heal one aspect of the illness, something else crops up that, interestingly, results in exhaustion. And not getting out there as much as I want to be.
I’ve known a lot of the physical aspects of the psoas from yoga and using postures to help open it but I didn’t realize the adrenal/exhaustion relationship Nor the spiritual/soul connection, which feels so close to my core emotional issue. I’m pleased that my current psoas problems stem from opening it up. I also note that as that source of fatigue has been healing my subconscious has thrown a new issue in. Overall, though, I feel that I’m staying aware and determined and that I’ll get on past this. Every time I’m challenged to look again at these issues I feel I move a little deeper and their hold grows lighter.
Several practitioners in recent years have commented that I’m working on the core. The core, of course, is the piece with the longest strongest hold on you. It’s also the piece that will keep finding a new way to keep your life where it thinks you need to be. I’ve been wondering lately if Coyote, the trickster in Native American lore, lives in that core place where ego has let its fears drop anchor because I’m feel like something tricky is going on :>)
I’m constantly fascinated by the intricate ways in which physical and emotional issues connect and express themselves.
This post is for Jenny Matlock’s AlphabeThursday, which is P this week.