Most meditators know the place of peace is in the silence, when the mind is still. The silence is the place where the divine connection lives. Seems like a desirable place so it’s interesting how many of us balk for various reasons at going there. Fears about pain and self worth are high on the list.
A lot of teachers don’t mention that if you have issues and/or repressed memories that silence will relax the subconscious death grip you have on those things you don’t want to remember and will allow them to rise to consciousness. In our society we’re pretty much programmed to want to avoid looking at hard, upsetting issues from our own lives, so a lot of people are very resistant to silence because on some level they’re afraid of what they may face.
Among those who do practice meditation of some sort, there’s a significant number who meditate yet keep the memories down. They find greater calm but they don’t quite get to the place of true quiet. The path to Buddha nature or God consciousness (or whatever term you want to use) for most people includes some dark nights, some time spent experiencing, acknowledging, and/or studying pain. Whatever practices you choose to journey into the stillness, they won’t ultimately succeed unless you’re willing to face the pain.
The even more subtle reason for resisting a journey to higher consciousness relates to the divine connection. A lot of us don’t feel worthy of seeing or believing we are divine. Some come from a religious background that places divinity firmly outside of humankind and they’re uneasy about accepting themselves as divine because it seems beyond them. What if I become quiet and realize I’m not good enough? Who am I to think I could have God consciousness or Buddha nature?
If you find yourself reluctant to meditate regularly or to even sit still in silence ask yourself whether there’s something painful you don’t want to see. Are you willing to face the pain in order to find peace within? Do you feel worthy—do you truly believe that your true self is part of God? Are you ready to enter the quiet?
This is my entry for AlphabeThursday from Jennie Matlock and today the letter is “Q”.