Being an academic type, when I began the journey, I read — and read and read. Book after book. And I attended workshops and consulted psychics and learned to read runes and tarot. I wanted answers and my life experience led me to believe I would find them by studying.
When I started to move away from seeing myself as an intellectual (see previous post) I began to question all the reading. Shortly before that time I worked at the Institute of Noetic Sciences. Best place I ever had a job and I love IONS, but the longer I worked there the more I felt that the emphasis on scientific proof meant too much head, not enough heart; the first time I caught the difference and could express it. Then I saw it in myself.
Although I also did practices, too much of my journey was occurring in my head.. I realized that the collection of books I already owned contained all I needed to know (many times over), I just needed to know it in my heart and my body and my spirit instead of in my head. I also figured out that you can pick up a good book every few years if you are growing and deepening and find new understanding and meaning every time. I occasionally still pick up a new book–sometimes a new way of saying something makes it clear or helps me to see in a different light. But I’ve turned more to practice and feeling how energy changes, moves, grows with one practice versus another.
With practice I felt more connection with spirit. I learned to understand practices by doing them instead of reading about them. My understanding now is that connection with the divine self is not achieved by a journey of the mind; it is not an intellectual exercise. The journey is one of feeling and faith, of opening your heart and your channel to spirit and learning to follow their wisdom. Are you on the journey in your head or in your heart?